Sometimes...

Sometimes we runaway from God because we feel that we are not worthy.  

Sometimes we need to realize that we don't need to work to gain God's approval because we already have it.  

Sometimes we need to stop chasing what we already have.

Sometimes we need to hate ourselves enough to realize that we can't control ourselves. 

Sometimes we need to be selfish enough to believe that the greatest being on earth loves us and is willing to guide our lives for us. 

Sometimes doing things right doesn't mean doing things perfectly, it means to do them with the mindset that God loves us regardless of what the outcome is.  

Sometimes... all the time. 

My.Teacher.is.Yoda.

and King Midas... AT THE SAME TIME!!!  :O GASP!

No joke.

Have you ever had a teacher soo wonderfully awesome and insightful that your just like *jawdrop*

yeah that would be me right now.  So I got a new violin teacher right.  SOo crazy.. 

ok on the off chance that he might read this (highly unlikely) I won't mention his name. haha

So the first time I met him I think he took too many cough drops cause he was sick so he was acting super weird.  Really really weird.  and he's kinda short too..well not really but he kinda look that way :] YET, he knows EVERYTHING.  Like I said, this guy is Yoda.  

On another note... he has the golden touch... but for music.  I swear everything he plays turns to audible GOLD.   He gave me this song couple weeks ago.  I didn't really like it... therefore.. I didn't really want to play it.  So I went to lesson the other day and he played like different measures to show me what he wanted me to fix... like I said, King Midas this guy.  Like when he played I could like imagine a prince charging through battle to  rescue his princess.  His music tells a story. 

    

He told me this story of a guy's dad he knew.  Way back before cheap public transportation and copy machines, there was this guy named Mr. Sheng.  He loved the violin.  His favorite piece was Ava Maria.    There was a violin transcription of the piece, but the only copy was over a hundred miles away in a library.  Mr. Sheng walked one hundred miles to this library.  walked.  seriously he walked.  When he got there.  He copied the music.  note by note.  line by line.  Then he walked another hundred miles home.  Love music people.  love. music.    

 

The Princess

So this is a little story i wrote for Childrens story :]  It's called

The Princess

There once was a princess who lived in a castle.
life was great and never a hassle.
her father loved her and spoiled her with tassels.

One day an evil man came to her and made a proud pose.
he said "come with me, and i'll give you a rose!"
Her father exclaimed "No! That man will only bring woes!"
Sadly, the princess only saw the beautiful rose,
that actually smelled like stinky toes.

The princess ran away with the man, much to her father's dismay
The king saw her off on that very grey day,
saying, "I love you, I love you! Don't go away!
We have a bouquet of roses! please please stay!"

The man led the princess to a land with no tassels.
where every day was a hassle.

The princess was put to work
as a booking clerk,
soon she went berserk!

She cried "I want to go home"
to my bed and to my comb!

but the evil man yelled, "you can't go home now!"
your father won't allow!

You've run away!
and my prisoner you shall stay!

The princess declared, "then I'll plow..
I'll milk a cow!
I'll have sweat coming off my brow!

Anywhere is better than this!
Because I reminisce

about my father's castle
where there are no hassles."

The princess went back
her father almost had a heart attack!

she explained to him ,"I'm sorry, but I can't be your princess anymore."
I'm not like I was before

I've disobeyed
Left home when you forbade

I'm not worthy of royalty
because I have no loyalty

so, I'll work for my chow!
I'll plow!
I'll even milk a cow!

Then the King turned to her and said,"I love you
I love you"

"you don't need to plow,
or milk a cow!"

"My princess you will always be
because my love for you is as endless as the great blue sea."
 
Based on the prodigal son.

School...and Inception *spoilers*

is not fun :[
ssiigghh haha I had three weeks? of summer break?  haha two were at the beginning of summer i think...and one was wheatstone...which was AWESOME! aannyywwaayy yesterday was my first day of fullerton college.  The first day of the semester is always SUPER CROWDED cause a bunch of people are trying to petition into classes... since im still a high schooler... i get a later registration date :/ which means that by the time i get to register all the classes are already full...which forces me to petition into classes....sadly more and more ppl are attending comunity colleges cause everywhere else is experiencing budget cuts.  sooo i stepped into Psych 101 today and there were 70+ people trying to petition...yes. I counted.  It was disgusting.  However, i wrote the prof. an essay on why he should take me the day before class.  AN ESSAY :P i don't know if i'll get the class but it's worth a shot...or maybe not.  it was kinda funny though the first thing he said was :

"Welcome to California.  The land of no opportunity." - Dr. Bob Byde

Depressing...yet funny and ironic.  He's an interesting man.  He has a phd in psychology i think and he's teaching at a junior college...He was married seven times...SEVEN.  He says he's had a wife from each continent.  CRAZY.  He's currently married right now but...man this should go see a psychologist :P but seriously it was take an act of God to get me into this course. 

   on another note haha i got into two statistics classes... which is EXTREMELY rare.   There were 13-15 ppl petitioning for the first one...only 5 got in.  For the second one...that's a funny story haha... so the teacher told all the petitioners to choose a number between 1 to 100.  So i picked the God number..."77" .  I was convinced that I wasn't going to get into this class...but then he called out the number 73.  I got in.  There were like 10-12 people and only 4 got in.  Miracle.  No joke. 
*SPOILERS*
 So I saw inception today...super awesome haha so as for the ending...i think it was real... cause the top was about to fall....ANND whenever he's in a dream..he has a ring on.  and at the end he doesn't have a ring on.  Don't try to say cause "oh he doesn't have a ring anymore cause he finally let go of his wife" ahh ha see at the beginning/end when he goes back for old Satio he's wearing a ring and thats after he lets go of his wife.. :]   Sooo much awesome stuff in this movie btw..i'd really like to discuss it with someone :P It's actually A LOT less confusing than Dark Knight...or Prestige (both by Christopher Nolan).
sooo things I found interesting:
1. ok how did Cobb end up washing up on the shores again?  I mean he went from with his projection of his wife...to the shores...Weird... haha
2. The concept of the movie seemed to revolve are planting seeds in people's minds/heart.  Hmmm... anything to do with how to spread christianity? :P idk maybe maybe not :/ also it sends the message of careful what you put in your mind.
3. also the totem..OHHMMMGGEEE ok the totem is like a hold on reality! soo awesome. and when Mol locked away her totem.  She lost her hold on reality.  She lost sight of the better things and traded it for fantasy.  Descent Into Hell anyone?  haha she went insane in reality too...
4. the kick is....sooo interesting haha so every time they get outta a dream they have to kill themselves.  This might sound longwinded or even a little crazy...but imagine that our selfish desires...our selfish wants are all a dream.  In order to accept the true reality (goodness, truth, beauty) we must die in our unreal feigned realities.  

"You have tasted of death now, is it good?"
"It is good, it is better than life."
"No, it is only more life." - The Golden Key (Copied from Gabriel)  

5. Notice in every "dream-mission" they have.  Mol always messes things up.  After he confronted Mol and finally let go of her...everything we better...kinda.  Letting go kinda like up the scene where Carl lets the house float away at the end.  

 No matter how great dreams and fantasies may seem... Reality is always better. :]

Reflections

WOW.  Last couple months have been a CRAZY whirlwind... SAT Prep started, Wheatstone...yeah crazy..  Soo i haven't been updating because...i have had a lack of time :[  SAT sucks the life out of you...no joke.  I really don't agree with the insanity of asians here...these kinds of programs kinda just suck the emotion and really kills the soul in some way.  I mean really is it worth it to spend 7 hours a day during summer cramped up in a chair, then going home and doing homework for another like 4 hours...ALL for one test?  Why am I here again?  I want to go to PUC...don't think it's THAT hard to get in..."/ idk i guess it does help with scholarships... really it kills your mind though.  Well anyway last week was WHEATSTONE! and it was AMAZING!!!  I thought it was going to be horrible haha but it was probably the best thing that happen to me :]  Keith Buhler was my mentor...which was really werid cause I'm used to calling him Mr. Buhler but for that week i called him Keith....hmmm still not used to it...anyway...GO PELICANOUS REX (our group name)!!!! Dr. Reynold's seminars were incredible....and i say this literally...i don't think wheatstone whould have as big of an impact on me if Dr. Reynolds wasn't there... :P and I met THEE greatest people EVER :] (Rachel, Brittnay, Eric...so on so forth) i like genuine ppl...genuine ppl make me happy :] That week, I really saw God.  like really truely saw a better glimpse of Him.  From watching up to the getty to the discussions to the speeches to epic monday adventures to musical performances.  It was amazing. :]  Some people say camps like Wheatstone change their lives..... Wheatstone saved my life.  no joke.  I can earnestly say that I am happier now, then before wheatstone.... Actually, before it I was about ready to like go crazy....yeah... Wheatstone is good :] you should all go :] and i seriously don't think i can explain all of it in one small blogpost...  Wheatstone is immensely different i'll say that much.... anyway here are some of the selected pics i have taken :]....

http://pikachoo12.deviantart.com/

They. Killed. Batman.

Okie dokie so recently checked up on the what's going on in the dc comics world...specifically the batman area (hey, what else do ya do in summer?).....BE WARNED!  This is going to be a nerdy post! xP  Ok for starters I'm just going to say that Nightwing is my favorite dc character of ALL TIME!! Nightwing is the original robin....just grown up haha. 

Awesome?  I think so! :]

      Annyyway though this post is not about him... well not mainly, it's about Batman.  So apparently, DC comics decided to kill off batman.  Well Bruce Wayne - batman.... To give a little background on Bruce Wayne, when he was 8 he saw his parents shoot and murdered in front of him.  He vowed to try to rid Gotham City (his fictional hometown) of such crimes.  His number one poilcy was Never Kill anyone and Never bare firearms.  Yet, his dying act showed him picking up a gun and killing someone with it.   

       ok with that said...here's my point.  When DC comics killed off Bruce Wayne they destroyed a LOT of things.  Let's make a list! :]

WHY I DON'T LIKE DC COMICS:

1. They killed batman... dude...THEY KILLED BATMAN!  For years, Bruce Wayne has proven himself to be  THEE greatest escape artist in the world.  At the end of serveral issues, batman is at a near death state, yet he ALWAYS escapes.  That's just who Batman is.  He escapes death.  So to have Bruce Wayne killed by some lazer beam eye's from some evil super god (so no one has escaped this lazer beam thingy...so what? :P He's batman)....not cool.  

2. Bruce Wayne is the immortal batman.  When someone says batman, it's ALWAYS linked to Bruce Wayne.  Even people who don't know ANYTHING about comics know the simple fact, Bruce Wayne is Batman.  It's kinda like how everyone knows that Clark Kent is Superman.  It's just known facts ya know?  To change that is like....insane.  I don't like it. 

3. Bruce Wayne died breaking his most sacred rule.  This guy became Batman because he witnessed killing in one of he most horrifying ways ever.  He was grounded upon this rule his ENTIRE career.  These people made him go againest everything he stood for.  This makes Batman a hypocrite... The worst part about this is how the writer of issue of batman's death explained it.  and I quote:

"the root of the Batman mythos is the gun and the bullet that created Batman. So, Batman himself is finally standing there to complete that big mythical circle and to have the image of Batman up against the actual personification of evil and now he's got the gun and he's got the bullet. It seemed to me to work." - Grant Morrison

This guy apparently is saying that Bruce Wayne became who he is cause some bad guy had a gun and went "MWWHAHAHAHA" and made Wayne's life miserable.  So Morrison thinks it "works" to make batman's last act, one of revenge.  So batman points a gun at a symbol of evil and goes with his last breath mutters "mwhhahaha I have the gun this time" (not really but just follow me here).  This is a HORRIBLE ending.  I guess it's just cause as a kid I was taught that revenge gets you no where and it's not the right thing to do.  As the Bible teaches "turn the other cheek".  Their saying that batman's entire life career was centered around revenge... maybe in the beginning a bit, but he generally stands for justice and ironically mercy too - not revenge... haha at least in my mind he does.  No matter how evil the villian is, he never kills them, in this way he shows mercy.  However, he does make them face justice.  This is why i hate the end of batman. They made a mess of one of the greatest characters. 

4. Bruce Wayne's replacement is Dick Grayson.  Yah.  So first, DC destorys one of my favorite characters (Batman/Bruce Wayne).  Then they go after my favorite character.  awesome.  So Dick Grayson was the original robin.  For the longest time he was the comic contrast to the darker character, batman.  After a while, he eventually became Nightwing.  Personally, this is my favorite character cause he's witty yet serious enough at the right times he's round character compared to batman.  (BTW... DC comics also messed up his storyline...and made him look like a COMPLETE JERK!).  As skilled as Grayson might be, he's no batman.  The character differences just don't fit to me.  Grayson will always be better as robin then as batman.  He actually hated some of the ways that Bruce Wayne did things as batman.  I don't know...i really doesn't fit for me.  Plus, they put an end to the character Nightwing...which im SUPER bummed about.

5. The new robin is....interesting.  So the new robin is Damian Wayne, Bruce Wayne's biological son.  He was created in a artifical womb and he shares Bruce Wayne's dna.  Yah.  anyway this kid is snarky, he talks-back and he's nothing like the other robin's (haha yes there were more than one...not going into details about that) were like.  Personally, I liked how robin was a lighter, happier character.  This kid...eww...

    Anyway, that's my little rant on the dc writers.  It's sad they create such good characters then they destroy them... :[  In my mind, these characters stand for a lot more then what the dc writers potray them as.  sigh... they've messed up a lot of my favorite characters.  Batman, Nightwing, Tim Drake ( the third kid to wear the Robin costume), Cassandra Cain (the second person to be called batgirl).  But there is one good dc writer that I really like... but maybe sometimes don't agree with.  Alan Moore.  "Superman: For The Man Who Has Everything".  Go check it out. ;]

btw...some of my facts might be a little sketchy?  haha idk

A Good Friday

It's been a wonderful day!  I got to go adventuring with Emily at the fullerton arbortum!  Such a beautiful place!  After that we went to downtown fullerton and bought some clothes :] After, we went to get some chocolate covered espresso beans and chicken soup at rutabogez's :].  Wonderful little hole-in-the-wall!  Ahh This is My Father's World!  (I appoligize for the lack of quality blogger has for photos... these are usually a lot higher in quality : /  )

"...The birds their Carols raise.."

It's sabbath now.  God is good.  God loves me.  Why do you love me God?  A lowly sinner like me.  Prideful and careless.  May I one day understand your unjust grace and mercy upon my kind.