Historical musical.

There are always those songs that when you hear them it just brings you back to way back when.  I'd like to think that people like a particular song partly because of the tune and the lyrics and partly cause something happen when they were listening to that song.  That's probably why couple's have "their song".  Anyway, here's some songs that remind me of old times :]

1. Superman - Five for Fighting :
Back when I was 11 or 12 I used to be crazy about Teen Titans the tv show.  I used to watch the episodes on Youtube because my parents blocked cartoonetwork on the tv.  One day while I was searching for tv episodes I came across a music video with Teen Titan episodes edited to it.  It was the first Teen Titans music video that I had saw like that.  The song that went with it was haha you guessed it Superman.  I really liked the idea so I started making music videos myself.  Got pretty popular on youtube in that community :P but I haven't made those videos in a good while.  It's a great song though.
2. The Hamster Song
Yes. That dastardly annoying song that EVERYONE hates.  I didn't even listen to it when I linked it.  I was too scared that it would get stuck in my head.  I remember on a saturday afternoon when my brother and I were still kids....we were waiting for sundown to come.  We'd dance around the living room in our pj's blasting the Hamster dance.... going crazy like someone injected sugar into our veins.  I'll never forget that :]
 3. 1000 miles -Vanessa Carlton
  This song was WILDLY popular for the longest time.  It got pretty annoying haha.  I remember when I was still living in Boston my dad would come home and complain about how many times he listened to it in the hospital that day.  The hospital would put on the radio so that was what played.  My childhood friend also really liked this song too so we'd go over to their house and they'd be blasting it.  Reminds me of innocent times.  A lot of people used this for teen titan music videos too :]
4. You and Me - Lifehouse
This has got to be my favorite song.  I probably heard it when I was little but when I was probably 14 I remember sitting in my room just singing "and it's You and Me and all of the people" and I didn't know WHAT that song was.  I don't even think I remembered hearing it at that time.  So i youtube'd it and found that song. 
5. 100 Years - Five for Fighting
My parent's are big fans of any music with drums in the background.  Idk it's just something for taste for them I guess :P but my brother burned this on a cd and brought it as road trip music when we went to washington.  He was 15 at that time...but this makes me think of washington. :]
6. Song of Hope - Robbie Seay Band
Russia. Just that word brings back so many memories.
Carly: I love this song!
Me: what song?
Carly: You've never heard it before?
Me: nope
haha I love this song still.  This reminds me of Carly sleeping on my shoulder during the long bus rides in Russia that I couldn't sleep during.  I remember the lush evergreen forest (which weren't really "america") that we'd spend countless hours (14 was the longest!) driving past.  Or maybe looking out the window at 12 am when we were STILL stuck in traffic in the middle of Red Square.  haha there was a drunk girl in the middle of a rave that night.  So many more memories... Alfa Alfa... :] ( <-- no one's going to get that reference).
7. Count on Me - Bruno Mars

CHARLIE'S ASIANS THEME SONG!!! My brother was mentioning the other day how there weren't many friendship songs anymore.  This song means a lot to me....just because of the people it reminds me of.  Wheatstone was a blast.  It wasn't egregious at all.  If it was egregious I probably wouldn't mention this at all.  I remember staying up in Brittany and Rachel's room till like 2 am talking....about fun stuff that made us not egregious.   :] I remember Shakespeare when the othello said egregious and we got all excited. Or all the lunch jokes that we made about egregious or non-egregious topics... ok i can't think of anymore ways to say egregious. so egregious egregious egregious egregious THERE!.............egregious :]  That's for you brittany :] 

Hilary Hahn

I truly believe that I will never forget tonight.  I went to violin today and right outside my teacher's teaching room was a poster for this event:
"December 9th: Hilary Hahn Lecture/Demo

As part of the Los Angeles Philharmonic Master Encounter series for the Colburn Conservatory of Music, violinist Hilary Hahn will be giving a lecture/​demo on Thursday, December 9th at 6:00PM in Thayer Hall. The event is open to the public and free."

I almost died when I saw that.  I was kinda debating whether I should go or not cause I actually have finals next week.  But my mom told me "hey, finals will come and go.. but this is Hilary Hahn".  So I got a ride from a friend and oh MY GOOODNESS! I will never forget this night. 

   The past two weeks I've been getting really frustrated that I haven't really made any like "level" improvements in the past 5 years (Even though I practice my butt off).  but this was a huge wake up for me.  It reminded me that music is not about levels of skill or competition.  It's about Beauty.  Soul. God. 

   I sat within about 100 ft of her and asked her a question in the Q&A part of the lecture.  She played two mvts of unaccompanied Bach at the end.  It was seriously one of thee most beautiful things I've ever heard.  The hall was pretty small...but warm and intimate.  My teacher once told me "playing unaccompanied Bach is very intimate.  It's a place where you meet God".  Because I was sitting so close to her, I could feel the intimacy in her playing.  I could feel the personal aspects of every bow change and every note.... especially in the slow mvt. (she played one fast and one slow mvt.)  If she was doing this for money the seat I occupied tonight (the floor..thanks to crowds of people there)...would probably cost 75-100 dollars....i think.  The experience of it, I believe, is worth much more.  I am so fortunate to have gotten all this for free. 

   I actually brought my cell phone and I was going to take a picture or a video of her.  But my phone died right when I sat down.... This was a good thing though.  If I had been obsessed with recording everything I don't think I would have enjoyed it as much as I did.  A simple camera can not capture beauty quite as well as the human ear and mind can.  On the other hand my friend did get a 10 second clip of her playing... it's kinda bad quality but hey... it's a camera phone :P 

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=990268736384

All in all.  Amazing night.  I am eternally grateful.  Thank you God. 

Psych Prof.

I love this guy.. SOOO FUNNY

"Allomony is a cheap word for all the money"
"Imagine if your at Las Vegas...or Loss wages"
"I put your timed essays into 3 piles.  The ones that had nothing on them I put in my John Locke Pile"
"If you ask a guy why he got a good grade he'll say "i'm smart" you ask a girl, she'll say "I studied"

T-90 mins

At this very moment in time in the town in walnut, Young Joycelyn was exactly 15 years old 364 days 23 hours and 9 mins.

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At this very momment in the town of walnut, young Joycelyn was approximantly 15 years, 364 days, 16 hours, and 21 mins years old.  gotta love pushing dasies. 

Relax

I don't ever think I have been that relaxed before...  during any performance or any practice sessions or anything.  My heart rate was incredibly slow... or at least it felt that way.
      I just finished my first recital at the colburn school of music.  I was the only violinist tonight... which i am extremely happy about.  Less pressure :]  The whole day I was having this weird stomach thing.  I think i was getting nervous.
     On the way to colburn, I started singing Jesus loves me, beyond words (tenth ave north), and beloved (tenth ave north).  Realizing that God loves you no matter how badly you screw up does wonders for your nerves.  I ended up being so relaxed that i started dragging a bit.
     All in all, I didn't play the best I wanted too... dragged... then a rushed a little.  But this was the very first performance where I was confident in my playing.  Being confident, I have slowly realized, doesn't mean that you do your best.  It means that you realize that God will love you no matter what happens... that you don't need to prove yourself to others.. because you have already satisfied the master of all things, by simply doing your best.

Sometimes...

Sometimes we runaway from God because we feel that we are not worthy.  

Sometimes we need to realize that we don't need to work to gain God's approval because we already have it.  

Sometimes we need to stop chasing what we already have.

Sometimes we need to hate ourselves enough to realize that we can't control ourselves. 

Sometimes we need to be selfish enough to believe that the greatest being on earth loves us and is willing to guide our lives for us. 

Sometimes doing things right doesn't mean doing things perfectly, it means to do them with the mindset that God loves us regardless of what the outcome is.  

Sometimes... all the time.